"What happened?.. I got fat."

Diet started (again!) today, wasn't a brilliant start, but I did resist having a chocolate biscuit when I offered them to the kids, and I had salad twice (I NEVER eat salad!).

I seem to spend most of my life saying I'm on a diet, going on a diet, or having a day off from my diet! And yet I've weighed exactly the same for the past 4 years, not just 'about' the same, exactly the same.

I think its safe to say my relationship with food is pretty messed up, I use food as a way of showing my emotions, which is a completely wrong way of thinking. I need to eat to live not live to eat. I need to show my feelings instead of eating them!

Writing helps, I find it easier to write what I'm feeling than to say it. So this is where my blog comes into it, never really used it much before, but now I am going to try to write regularly (at least once a week) not especially for anyone to read but just for me to get things off my chest. Saying this the cable for my laptop has just broken, so until I get a new one I wont be posting anything!